The best things…

…in life happen when they are least expected.

That’s what I have always believed because that’s what I have seen happening with me all my life.

I should have foreseen the Disaster which befell yesterday. I should have known. I was expecting too much, I was anticipating too much, and I was getting excited for no reason all too much. Lol. Usually these are clear indications that my dreams are gonna fall apart. Lol. So usually I prepare myself beforehand. Not this time, though.

You get where I am leading you to? You know how in life there are many times when you know something exciting, something great, something FUN is gonna happen and you look forward to it eagerly? You wait for it to happen? And then when finally the time comes for your ‘dreams’ to come true, things fall apart and nothing goes according to your expectations?

And then there are some times you don’t really know what to expect from a certain person, a certain event, a certain place? Or you don’t know how something may turn out? Or maybe you just don’t know something is gonna happen? And this time, this person, this happening turns out to be the best moments, the most beloved, the most cherished memories?

Well, that’s what I’m talking about right now.

I was waiting for something to happen. And when it finally did, everything fell apart. And I reacted stupidly. Immature, in my opinion.

I got pissed; took out the anger at the wrong person at the wrong time; threw tantrums; screamed at my family; fought with my parents; stayed depressed the entire time.

Why?

Just because something didn’t go quite to my liking.

I mean, now when I have slept over it (that’s my remedy for every disease!) I realize how selfish, how immature and how ungrateful it all is. Sometimes when things don’t go quite to my liking, I’ll act all stupid, get depressed, think I’m the most miserable victim of all time. And when Allah blesses me with unexpected happiness and surprises, life’s “fine” then?

How ungrateful! True is it when they say man is an ungrateful wretch. Or in the words of a great writer (me! ) “Humans are asses.”

Another lesson well-learnt: Never expect too much. Especially if it may not be all that Halal.