Why?
December 16, 2006
I have no idea why I opened this window and started writing. I mean, there are plenty of things which I know I can write about, which can prove to be very amusing, interesting and thought-provoking for you. But right now, I’m not in the mood to discuss any of those things. Maybe later.
Umm…I’m not sure what I should write right now. I’m not really in an inspired mood right now so don’t wanna write about religion really. But I guess I should. I have been witnessing so many weird things and meeting so many weird people, it’s really remarkable.
There’s this guy at my university. Excellent writer, MashAllah. I’m seriously a huge fan of his writing. I mean, coming from a guy studying at BNU, wouldn’t you fall for this line, “I paid for the drink, and I paid for drinking it.” I know it doesn’t sound like much here but I really like his writing.
But then, there he goes around writing this story about him screwing Satan. Literally.
Then, when I go ask him why in the world he submitted such a story for our final AOS exam, he starts telling me a bit about himself. “I was once very much into Satanism.”
Apparently, he used to listen to death metal (am i right in saying that’s the one which has elements of satan worship in it?), was deeply interested in cults and God-knows-what-else. Al-Hamdulillah, something happened and he came to his senses.
And here I am, thinking about that guy ever since I have talked to him. I mean, why is it that so much of the youth today is so disillusioned, disheartened by Allah (Naoozobillah!) and attracted towards atheism or worse, “Satanism?”
I mean, is it because people are so impatient that once they ask something from Allah and He doesn’t grant it, they lose all faith and trust in Him? Or is it because, Al-Hamdulillah, I have seen a relatively simple life so I don’t know what circumstances lead to a person rejecting/doubting the religion he was born in?
Obviously, I’m not judging him here, nor will I ever do it, InshAllah. I’m really, really happy that he is back on the straight path, MashAllah, and I pray he remains so forever InshAllah.
Ironically, he was the only guy of my university who actually came up and said he wanted to write duas in my diary which I’m taking with me for Hajj inshAllah. And MashAllah, his duas are one of the best, sweetest and most religion-based duas of all duas that came from BNU-ite friends.
But I just can’t stop wondering what had happened to actually make him do all that?
I mean, when I was talking to him, I was thinking, go on, keep talking, tell me about your life so that I can know how and why you moved away from Deen and into something so different. Keep talking.
But I neither got a chance to talk to him for long, nor, I’m sure, he would have told me as it was the first time we were ever talking.
All this breaks my heart. It’s just sad.
I mean, it’s not only H I’m talking about here, my friend Z, was just telling me about some friend of hers who wishes for death constantly. He wonders why suicide is haram. Why Allah never listens to his prayers.
I mean, what is this all about? Why does this happen? Is it because Allah put them in some test and they failed and now He is punishing them; or maybe because they are cowards; or maybe just because they may actually be right when they say Allah has abandoned them?
Like I’ve already said, I’m in a weird mood right now, certainly not the one in which I should write about religion. But then I thought, it’s not like I’m afraid of being doubtful about my religion ever, InshAllah, so I should write about it in any mood. I guess.
May Allah forgive me if I have said something I shouldn’t have. But seriously, all this breaks my heart. So many people; young people my age, apparently happy ‘cool’ people, good-looking people, sweet people, even my friends; so many people around me are so unhappy with their life, with their religion, with their Allah. I mean, why? I think, I’m one of you. I’m just like you. We have all loved and lost. We have all had our ups and downs. We have all prayed to Allah and sometimes have not gotten what we prayed for. But then why is it that Al-Hamdulillah, I’m happy and you’re not? I’m contented, you’re regretful? I look back at my past, and despite some major mistakes, I can still manage to smile…a huge smile, MashAllah. And you…you don’t even wanna turn back and look.
Basically, I guess I’m trying to say here that sometimes I feel guilty. Guilty of my happiness, contentment, guilty why Allah loves me so much, guilty why Allah has blessed me with the greatest blessing of all: loving Him and placing my trust on Him completely and thus being happy with what He provides.
I guess I just feel guilty why I’m happy and they are not.
Basically, my question is just this:
Why?
Remember Never is a werd Allah mian looks fer when He wants a good laugh. Never say ‘I’ll never do it again’, or that ‘I’ll never regret that’. You just mite!
And Im a bit superstitious abt sayin Im happy in life generally. I usually always add ‘relatively’ or ‘currently’…of course with a pinch of alhamdulillah…
I understand what you are saying. I always say Al-Hamdulillah Al-Hamdulillah I’m happy and contented with my life. And I’m not really superstitious about it…like I always say, Allah ke sapurd.
Everything is Allah ke sapurd.
But I’m just upset why everyone can’t be as blessed and happy as some people are. I mean, why can’t they be strong and hold onto Allah alone? I know somebody whose nature is very different from me, and Ive concluded thats the reason for his being unhappy with life. Is it like that for everybody then? That just because some people are more sensitive, less optimisitic and generally consider their misery as ultimate in da entire world, they are unhappy and that people who are happy-go-lucky, optimisitic and generally expect a lot of good from life, are blessed with happiness and contentment? I don’t think this can be the only explanation!
I’m just saying, unn ka kia kasoor? Why shouldn’t they be happy too?
see? this is what i mean. In my own little selfish happy world, I can’t imagine what horrible lives other people can have. I just found out ONE of the reasons why the second guy i was talking about may be so unhappy..
I just dont understand..
ohoo…”usman” bhayya…uve made me feel terrible guilty and afraid now..lol..Allah knows im not being ungrateful here or being proud of my life, its just that wen i see people so upset wid Allah, people who hav wandered away from His path, it hurts me deeply. I mean, it actually breaks my heart.
May Allah give hidayat to the entire Ummah and make them happy and contented on His path! Ameen!!
I think the reason why people fall into misery so easily is because they’re all hunting for the ‘instants’. If they want something, they want it now. They don’t care if its good for them or not, they just want it. But when Allah sometimes decides otherwise, they just can’t accept it as fate but go on whining/revolting or towards atheism or satanism or whatever.
Allah himself says that, insaan is zuldbaaz. And Allah says that if I were to ask something, I’d ask for ‘aafiyet’. In the end, we dont know what we want will do us good as well.
“It may be that you detest something which is good for you; andit may be you love something even though it is bad for you.
Allah knows, and you do not know.}
~ Surat AlBaqarah 2/216
I mean one praying stint doesn’t mean that now its obligatory on Allah to grant you what you’ve asked. Contine making dua and effort but if things don’t turn out the way you wanted, then accept it and make shuker to Allah. Hard, I know but its better than turning to atheism.
“I know somebody whose nature is very different from me, and Ive concluded thats the reason for his being unhappy with life. Is it like that for everybody then? That just because some people are more sensitive, less optimisitic and generally consider their misery as ultimate in da entire world, they are unhappy and that people who are happy-go-lucky, optimisitic and generally expect a lot of good from life, are blessed with happiness and contentment?”
Why is the only question that has no answer. But I’ll tell you why you sometimes don’t understand how people can be so unhappy. You’ve lead a happy life Masha’Allah, and despite some big mistakes, when you still look back you can count a number of achievements, A LOT of love and a huge amount of happy days. You are one of the few people Masha’Allah, who despite having troubles (like everyone has) has been blessed with loads more than anyone else. But these are a few people who, when they look, do not see much to cherish in their pasts. A lot of hardwork and no achievements, a of love lost (and not regained to make up for that loss), and nothing out of the ordinary. And as those people grow older and accumulate more and more bad memories, they become more sensetive and less optimistic by the day. I agree, they can fight their way out of it, but then again, not everyone has that nature.
Kasoor kisee ka nahi hota, it’s what Allah decides to do with everyone. Everyone’s different and handle their lives in different ways. You might not always understand why, but there’s nothing you can do about it.
And happiness is something that is earned. We all have a n absolutely logical explanation for staying unhappy all our lives, trust me.
The whole purpose of the concept of fate and believing Allah as the creator of all things and circumstances was that so we could free ourselves from worries that are not ours to take.
I think we ought to fight on this because there’s alot that we just blame on ‘circumstances’
By the way, I’ve got this one bayan, which you definately need to listen! It will answer alot of your questions, insha’Allah.
U dont neeed to feel guilty or fearful. If its Allah ure putting ur trust in, Who better than Him? Gham na lo…Fi amanullah
writers creek….i totally n completely agree wid u!! n yes, as soon as i come baq,ill listen to dat bayan inshAllah!
bhayya…yaa i no…As i said, Allah ke sapurd!!
Usman bout your first post…man i can understand that. that exact thing yar tht exact thing.
But i must say you do sound like Nigel Hawthonre from yes prime minister. All bureaucratic with God. Adding ifs nd buts.
If bureaucracy werked with God, I’d have taken my CSS and politely shown hell to all MD’s that came my way…
i have always wondered what the answer is to this ‘why’…
all i can come up with is that Allah tests different pple in different ways, but since we are on the more blessed side, al-humdulillah, we have more responsibilities as well. we cant even make a slightest excuse for not doing what is expected from us. if He has made us happy we should give Him enough reasons to be happy with us too and we especially cant say that we never got the chance coz al-humdulillah we are getting loads of chances its up to us how we avail them.
we should be the ones helping others, we are not only answerable abt ourselves but for what goes around us too. i am trying to imply that hadis that if ur neighbour sleeps with an empty stomach, then u are answerable for it. its far fetched correct me if i am wrong. the basic thing is if u get more u should give more as well. right??
ur right of course zarish…al true..